bittersweet...

just a few minutes ago, i found out that a library volunteer (miss gladys) passed away... i only worked in the library at school for a few months, but i got to know her a little... she was such a sweet lady... she's been in bad health for the last several weeks... even when she was still volunteering, she'd only be able to stand up for so long before she'd have to sit down for the rest of the time... and she'd get really out of breath... but she kept coming to volunteer... what an incredible example... she volunteered for 5 years... she'd been a missionary before that... after i started working at the other end of the building, i would still go down and talk to her just about each week...

it's sad, but i can't imagine what she's doing in heaven right this second... dancing and singing with all the energy she hasn't had in a very long time...

on a very different note...

today is derinda's birthday - she is my coworker who's moving to northern idaho next week... her daughter sent her roses... i thought to myself... i wish someone would send me flowers... i'm kind of in that mode... "in the mood" as we talked about in bible study... but i feel like if someone came along, i think i'd freak out... i hate feeling like a commitment phobe who wants commitment... it's like going to see a rom-com because it looks so good and leaving feeling worse than when you went in... i still want flowers in the mail...

on another very different note...

i went to my "parole officers" yesterday (l.a. weight loss) and since i started the program 3 weeks ago (including taking one of the weeks, actually 9 days, off completely and eating whatever i wanted while at camp and a little before that), i've lost 8.8 lbs... technically, i've only been on the program for 2 weeks (they put my file on hold while i was gone)... so my average is really high... after i got back from camp, it went up a little (.6 lbs), and then it went down 3.2 lbs... i've still got a long way to go...